Today, our little girl is 2 months old. Wow... how time flies! It seems like we've had her a lifetime, and yet, it's amazing to me that she could be two months already!! She's growing up so nicely! She smiles. A lot. She loves to be in her swing... she chatters away when she's in there, blowing bubbles and smiling at secrets only she knows. She, for some reason, loves to be on her changing table. Can always be guaranteed a bunch of smiles when she's on there. What that's all about, I have no idea. Maybe she just really appreciates that we keep her clean and dry. Maybe she loves the room... we do. Maybe, she loves the undivided attention and the ability to look us directly in the eyes. I don't know, but I do know that it sure does make changing diapers less of a chore and more of an honor!
I'm getting really sad about going back to work. Part of me is ready...I miss the work that I do, miss my patients. BUT, I'm sad about having to give up all of this time I've had with Brooklyn. It's such special time. I don't want to miss a minute of her life, and now I'm forced to miss hours at a time. In the long run, I'm sure it'll be good for all of us, but right now it's hard for me to think about it that way. Wish I could put her in a back pack and keep her near me all day, every day. At least we're really happy at this point with the day care we've chosen. I know they'll love her there.
We're anticipating getting together with Brooklyn's birth mother and some of her family next month. I'm excited about that, and yes, a bit nervous. I'm excited because we love her, and we're so grateful to her, and we want to share Brooklyn with her. We're looking forward to meeting more of her family, especially her son. Nervous because we don't know how she's really feeling, and she tends to hid her true emotions a lot. I want to be sure we're sensitive to how she might be feeling, as well as take care of ourselves in the process. I think M. will be happy to see how well Brooklyn is doing, and how well we're doing with her. I also assume there'll be some sadness, and maybe it'll hurt her a little bit to see how connected we are with Brooklyn, even if this is what she'd hoped and prayed for, for her baby. Hopefully it'll all go well.
We really are connected now. It's really amazing to see how Brooklyn looks to us, for us now. She knows her Mommy and her Daddy, and she'll follow us around with her eyes all the time, especially when someone new is holding her. It's pretty cool, to see and feel that attachement happening. She is so incredibly sweet and awesome! Happy 2 month birthday, little one!
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